Whether this be as a mother, worker or friend. I see myself falling short every day. Everywhere I look I see a mess to be straightened, a project to be done or a great creative idea that will save humanity.. all within my grasp. As soon as I reach for something.. I am distracted again and chasing butterflies in my head.
Is this terrible affliction caused by our society and nonstop chatter? Am I too "Linked In"? Do I multi-task to the point of no return? I used to be so good at so many things, taking pride in my accomplishments.
I am like a runner that ran too fast too soon and forgot my race wasn't a sprint but a relay- marathon (if they exist). I need to delegate more. Accept what I won't be doing and embrace what I can.. get rid of the clutter both physically and mental.
Bring back the days where getting lost for hours on a project was commended and appreciated. How else do we "dream big" as my prior IBM Executive used to tell us if we don't stop and take time for the creative and analytical process to work.
Today's pace is truly faster then I am willing to keep up and I am getting motion sickness. Please get me off the ride. Or give me a do-over so I can try this again to get it right. Oh wait, that's me trying to be perfect again.
Maybe I just realize I am getting older. Obsolete and discard able unless you are #1 and on top. I keep visualizing that I don't have to out run the bear, just not be the last one. Which works great normally, but today especially being the faux Monday that it was.. was one of those horrible unproductive work days.
Had I just embraced it for what it was going to be, I would of slept in and blown off the day. Pooling my energy for an amazing comeback on Wednesday. Good ole hump day. Instead I muddled through and got very little done, trying to fake my way to a great work day. Now we're back to square one. Everything is in need of some work in my life - and some areas more then others.
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