Geek Girl's guide to business in Florida

Here is it, finally - 2010. The year I turn 40. I remember like it was yesterday when I was a senior in high school, making a cool discovery that on 10/10/10 - I'd be the big 4-0. Gosh, here we are the year I turn it.

I am so excited for this year. 2009 was full of challenges. I know most of my self induced misery and the journey of sadness I experienced from losing my Mom to cancer would allow me to grow in ways unimaginable.

I am still figuring it out.

I am starting with the firsts. Reinventing myself to be what I want to be. I am allowing myself time for myself - not so I can watch every episode of Weeds or Heroes and constant chatter on the alphabet news channels like CNBC, CNN, Fox and my favorite websites like Drudge report, LinkedIn and face book. Instead I want to read and read a lot. Allow my mind, body and spirit to be inspired and to dream big, bigger than ever!

I want to earn more income then I did from 2004-2007, which by many may not have been a lot. However, since I am making so much less now... I am sensitive to how much better you live when you have 60k more to play with for retirement, vacations and an emergency fund.

I just spent an interesting week in Toronto at my company's kickoff. I met many great people and learned some new things to bring to my territory. I also learned a lot about myself. I am giving, open and eager to succeed and to give to others. I am not, however, good or happy with the corporate politics. It's not my strength and I am not sure if it's one of those things I should bother with getting better at.
When I am BS-ing with people... I don't like the person I become. It tends to feel like it's all a popularity contest and those who are the prettiest win. Immediately that puts me in a no win situation as I am not a size 2 with loads and loads of money or amazing intellect to Wow all I met. That drive to be perfect and the center of everyone's attention, represents the person I thought I needed to be when I was younger. Ironically, I never felt adequate, always awkward. I was far more selfish and interested in what everyone could do for me and the fakeness expected and OK with this strange relationship I had with getting approval from everyone else and secretly not feeling worthy of it for purely superficial reasons.

The older I get, the less I tolerate the BS. I need to temper this with getting things done differently and making sure I can deliver on my goals. That tends to override the corporate game. However, I think I want something more and those desires will require the support of the corporate types. I suppose I have more to learn in this area. How to be honest and truthful without sounding negative.

My travels ended to me coming back to Florida with a chance of snow and a low of 28. I am dreaming of my Heavenly bed of the last 4 days and making some chili. (I know so random, but dang its cold here - even with the heat on).

As I finish my update, I am excited to start working on my fitness again and will be posting my progress from week to week. I expect to lose 30lbs in 6 months. I will also be discussing my career and where its' going. I have high goals and this year will be a make or break in this particular career. I also have a lot of goals with my WITI Chapter where I am one of several on the leadership board.
I must balance all these goals with that of being a more involved friend, mother and wife. It's going to take a lot on my part to get this 2010 right. The great news is my house is more organized than it's ever been and I am starting to really buy-in into the concept that you must have your physical world in order to really balance the rest of your world.

Good night and God speed everyone!